Heart-breaking love

I will walk to uncertainty tonight
to the ruins of an old bridge
Where loneliness quietly awaits
for its old, but uninvited guest

Stars will decorate the sky all over
Sun will be slowly dying again...
Silently, as if crawling on thinest thread
Darnkess will fall, heavier than led.

Oh, hollow footsteps, where do you lead me?
Old shoes have seen this timid road before
Stop pumping heart with this false hope
when you know already what's at the end...
...of this rope.

Heart! My heart, gullible, fond...
How can't you see through this deceit?
How can you still believe in this wonder?
When old wounds yet haven't even healed.

Isn't it enough that on my chine
I carry thousands of small, diminutive
flames
Why can't you just be content
with thousands of egoless,
once enjoyed names?

In darkness of nights, I feel you pushing
scaring my chest amock. Hurt!
Faced with all disappointments and sorrow
how can you dare to enemour again?

Then clandestinely you enter my dreams
Oh, who can stop their own heart?
How can I keep my desires secret?
How to escape my dungeon tonight?

As you lead me blindly over the ruins
And lie that each step gets me closer
to HER, whose face is unfamiliar to me
but somehow, I still long for her touch.

As sky melts down and stars are swarming
She is so close, I start to misdoubt
Oh, damn you, accursed, weak, heart of mine!
Masochist!
Enjoy, while I cry out loud.

As it only happens in dreams, she appeared.
With divine music of heavenly choir
And voice that turned that night into day
With tender breath of florial May.

Ah, dear woman, I don't know you face,
but your lips I would recognize in trice
If only I could touch them with mine
But, how...
that only in dreams
tomorrow exists for both of us?

Allow me to kiss you, at least tonight
Let me find out what love truly is
When the end sneaks up and falls upon us,
your eyes will still
continue to shine.
"My true and only eternal light".

Why tears are running down from your eye?
Why are you looking at me, as if it was
the last time?
Should I be doomed to wander through this wasteland
and never to know what is true love?

No! Don't wake me up! I'm staying here
If only for second more here to lie
If dead soul only could still dream...dead
Willingly I would break down and die.

Holy Sun, my executioner, stop!
I don't feel ready for another day
Just want to follow my heart's amok lead
...to her; she awaits in, perhaps, another
dream.

...Don't ask me again: how much longer like this?
Is it even worth it? What if, all the above
...was a mistake?
How many sunrises will end up blackened
with shortish dreams and heart-breaking love.

Ddrove 2006