Going Away

    I am leaving forever from your life,
    where I left nothing to remember me by
    scrapping spilled words from the stony ground
    my faithful friends
    and followers
    blind.
    Again, as with the destiny lead
    Cross on the other side of mind
    Drowning with tear
    In which I summoned
    All I have never had courage for.
    Swallowing bitter, God awful taste
    Of all costly defeats of hollow past
    To my own happiness digging deep grave.
    The sky is crying watching the sight:
    Master, or only desire’s slave
    With requiem melts
    Stars
    Without light.

    I’ll grab the bloody stain of my heart
    With my own bare hands I’ll rip out my chest
    Let it hurt!
    Damn it, let it explode
    That nest…
    So never again awakened becomes.
    Not again…
    Let it rotten
    For days
    Years
    Decades and centuries.
    Horrible picture show to all mankind.
    My face without
    One shade of worries.

    With all black colour I’ll pain my body
    To melt down becoming
    One with the night
    I hate the day when throughout my world
    You spread mighty essence of love
    Love, that awakened forgotten seed.
    Stone breaking love that crumbled the Rock
    And all illusions once I believed.
    For moment I doubted:
    Perhaps, there’s more!
    Very next second
    That shy thought
    Died
    And old world I’ve known since ever
    Rises again with almighty shine
    From life I’ll take whatever I desire
    From love-whatever mercy I find.

    While claws of shadows travel your face
    In laughter erase these words and scars
    That I’ve never left for you
    To remember me by.
    Tonight I am going away
    Forever,
    Love of mine.

                                                                                        Ddrove 2001